I managed to ascend to the next, a little smaller loop during a very deep meditation, in which it was shown to me that everything is one. I am everything and I am nothing — it does not make a difference when I think that I am more intelligent or see deeper than others, or to compare myself with others, because I am exactly where I am. But at the same time I am only as far as the one who has just arrived in the spiral as well as as far as the one who has already taken the whole path and has achieved Nirvana, the ultimate fusion with cosmic consciousness.
When I put myself above or below others, I do not pay respect to my own path, plus I stagnate in place without moving forward or back. I was very grateful for this insight, because Osho already said: “Our greatest ego is the spiritual.” So this was my first loop of dis-identification. My further loops were the dis-identification with the pride, and with the thoughts. At the moment I am working on not defining myself over my emotions. I am the I am — never more, never less. Pure consciousness in earthly action. Each of us has his own spiral staircase of the ego, as well as his very own way from the separation into the whole — my story serves only as an example.
After leaving the last loop of the Unalome, you have settled in your inner core. All the detours of the ego were necessary to return to your essence. It is only when one experiences separation that one can experience totality — at least in the sphere of duality.
And so the line of the Unalome continues to flow — at the place with the serpent lines (the serpent symbolizes cosmic wisdom and divine energy — its pattern when moving is a symbol for the heartbeat that drives us all) it symbolizes that we have arrived in our essence and within the flow of life, instead of being pushed back and forth by it. We have understood that we are the river, not the boat — that our ego is part of the whole, but not as important as it fancies. That life flows through us, and we must only allow it to express itself through us rather than control everything through our thoughts and deeds.
The straight line at the upper end stands for the path to Nirvana, which is the fusion with the cosmic consciousness. The final point is Nirvana; Like the paradise or Shambala, Nirvana is not a place, but a state. It is understanding the truth behind the veil of illusion.